In August 2003 I came to realize that my happiness and joy cannot be any greater than I feel now, except of course the Lord increasing its depth. Impatience was dispelled, hurt and pain was banished in a great way.

‘I am filled with the joy of the Lord. He is the one who has made me happy. He is the source of all my happiness and contentment.

I used to think that I would only truly be happy when the Lord brought me a wife. How wrong I was! How deceived I had been for 20 years.

I still remember saying to the Lord that I would never be truly happy and fulfilled until He answered my prayer for a companion. Oh how wrong I was and oh how GLAD I was to be wrong. How I rejoice that, apart from my conversion, He has done the greatest miracle in my life.

To be truly happy beyond all imagination, just with Jesus alone, is amazing and awesome.

The Matt Redman song ‘When the Music Fades’ has become my song for 2003; it typifies all that God has done for me.

The Lord Himself has become my passion and exceeding delight.

I have learnt that there is nothing else in this world that can make me feel the way I do right now. I have reached the point of true happiness and contentment, after so many wasted years of suffering needlessly.

I am a fulfilled man, filled with the Spirit and with joy.

Jesus said that He came to give life, and life more abundantly. He also said that there would be fullness of joy in His presence.